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November 21, 2007

Ok now, this is enough.

The pregnant Christina Aguilera, actually one of my favourite singers, recently appeared wearing NOTHING under her dress. Ok, Christina. But why did you have to show the whole world?



Why the hell does Christina have to go along with the other girls and get out of a car showing her..well..pussy? I mean..C'mon this is childish. If they jump out of the window, you'll do that do, won't cha? And anywayz..she's pregnant. Imagine what she'll tell her child later. "Look! This was mummy when she was pregnant..and this was her pussy back then" ??? Argh. Didn't think Christina would ever go that far. Still love her music and voice though. You know, in "Dirrty" times she showed us her sexy side and still stayed, well, dressed! Back then she was self-conscious, now she's unconscious. The hormones of a pregnant woman?

November 14, 2007

I was always there it's just I never told ya...


Hey, guys! Well..what I have to tell ya...thumbs up for my love life! The break we took officially ended after a few days only. Even though it was very little time I must say it was quite hard. But I lived. lol. Ok, now, listen ^_^ If your man's an asshole he must go. But if he's only a little asshole and knows it..plus you love him..then go on with him^^ Wise, huh?! >.< Haha. People, I'm in love! <3 And well...today he said to me the most beautiful words anyone has ever said to me...hehe. Ok, so..the break's over, the ache's over ;) And now..DANCE,DANCE! haha i'm being stupid (so i don't deserve a capitol >>i<<)
Somethin else now...it's an examn in politics tomorrow and I do need shoes. I feel quite comfortable in my skin. My fingers drive me crazy. Got P.E. lessons tomorrow- which I hate...humm.....I want you right here by my side..where you can stay forever! hehe. Yes, visitors, you can stay forever and read me. READ ME, I'M HOT >_>
I just watched Desperate Housewives and you know what? I could actually identify myself with Susan. Because in this episode she was criticised (oh gosh that's the wrong spelling, isn't it?) by another woman saying Susan's drama-addicted. Like, when there's no drama in her life, she creates some herself. Haha. This is actually SO like me. Really, sometimes I feel, if I got no problems, I create some. Maybe just because my soul's scared of boredom =P hmmm...and the woman also told Susan she didn't know about luck...well..am I like this? I dunno. But, hey, Susan's quite a bit older than me^^ Haha, I'll have the time to figure out...
Bye with luv +_+

October 30, 2007

Guess who's back...


I'm back from my one-week-holiday. It was..well...cold and boring. Really. I'll post some pictures soon, though.
I don't know if it's right to talk about my personal life here, but I have to tell it everyone and everywhere because I...well, I feel quite lonely and I don't want to push it away. So...I can't eat. Can't sleep. Can't concentrate. Can't drink. But that doesn't hurt me. What hurts me is that I have no security. Not at all. I didn't let him leave [...] But now I have to wait for something that may never come. It's very hard but I said I'd give him time because I know what it's worth. And I'll stand my word. But if I don't get through... Really, I CANNOT and do NOT WANT TO imagine this. As I'm sitting here alone right now, I feel it aching in my chest, in my stomache. I feel something thick in my throat. Me siento debil cuando estoy sin tí... (listening to Juanes..and it fits..) It's so strange and different suddenly. When I think of week-ends, I ask myself "What the hell will I be doing?". There's nothing that I would want to...I mean...you know?! I have to really pay attention to not let my eyes get wet. I could study for school all day, but...where's the sense in that? Good marks won't make me a happier person now, really. School has never touched my emotions anyways. Te digo..amame...carino.. Really...I have to make him miss me... But it's hard. And what if I don't succeed? It's hard. Strange and difficult. I'm very insecure but I cannot, will not, give up.
Well, thanks for listening...I'll let this blog know bout whatever my follow...

October 20, 2007

...I'm off...!


So..hey, there!
I just wanted to let ya know...[in case anybody ever reads this] that I'm off for like one week now. I'm on vacation in the south of Germany- I'll hopefully come back with some pictures for you to see and some stories maybe..? haha naa it's not gonna be THAT interesting over there. Oh, and, I decided to post more interesting things from now on. Not those stories of boredom. So, yeah, this is a very cool info.: I'm leaving tomorrow..and so..I'm off now! bye..^^

October 15, 2007

"'And if she had wings, she'd fly away..."'


Good evening, everyone!
I just wanted to let you know...I am home..ALONE so come around if you like me ;) Kidding in a bad way ~_~ Nah, but I really am home alone. Ooooh. Hmm. I'm tired but..hey it's 8.30 PM and I'm on holidays so..naaah I'm not going to bed right now. T__T I want someone to be around...AND I want some lilac-coloured nailpolish. But dark lilac. Yummi. Haha. But really...I feel lonely *lol. I'm bored & bitchy. Blah. What am I to do? ...I've had a veeeery lazy day today and now I feel like..so lazy but in a rather negative way cuz..humm it's a feeling as if you just lay in bed all day and didn't wash yourself (I DID take a shower though, lol). Know what I mean? Haha I'm on vacation next week. Goin to...yeah the blackforest in the south of Germany. Hahaha. It's actually quite...chilled?! over there..just some hills, forests, cows... Yay ~_~ Hmm but it might be nice though cuz I imagine it's really relaxing.
Hmm wait..what am I up to tomorrow? aaah nuthin >.< That sucks. Really. But I'm going out at night =). Some hot chocolate, please! I recently went to Starbucks with my boyfriend and right now I'm in the mood for another cup. Ah, but I'm getting fat. lol. I'd really like to see a gym. from the inside...ya know? But..it's expensive and there's no way I'm going ALONE. Nah. Hmm okay I'm boring, ain't I? ...
So bye!

October 6, 2007

I'm here telling the moon...


Hola, c'est moi! Well well, what do I say? I woke up today at a quarter to 1...PM. I suffered from a great lack of sleep through the whole week. Because of school o_O Humm..well well! I actually don't know what to tell you here but again, I felt like posting. Yay^^ One week of school and then holidays again. Two weeks, I mean, that ain't so bad ^.^ By god I swear, my love went nowhere, it was always there inside of me, it's just that I never told.. Hmm..listenin' to Jamelia. Cute lyrics, huh?
Aww, yes, before I forget..my Nelly Furtado Fansite (NFF, ok?! haha) has just gone through..REEE-DESIGN! sexy, huh? Keep your eyes on Thank you.
Aww, this beat is wicked, it's fun [ears occupied with: Ain't a Love-Jamelia]. OK. Hum. The boys are stupid. Me & the girls wanted to go out tonight but they went yesterday..baah... xD You know...coz I don't =P Well, since a few ...weeks, I guess..me & mates & mates & me keep goin out, drinkin, laughin. Well, me watchin' the drunk mostly. I know it sounds..somewhat stupid but it's kewl, ya? >.<
Anywayz..I NEED MONEY! I wanna buy..this & that =) And a new perfume, man. I'm currently testing "V" by Valentino. It's cool. But Irresistible by Givenchy..and this Lancôme thing...lol, very interesting, I know.
Awww I guess right now it's the first time that I really am happy FOR someone else, not only for me. xD Yup, a friend of mine...aaah she just fell in love and it's so cute. He's so cute. Hehe. I mean...you should really enjoy the moments when a boy writes songs about you...sends you "i've fallen for you"-messages and stuff. Haha. I guess my baby's all over that stuff already. It's almost four months right now. No boy has ever stayed with me for that long. Lol. I know that sounds quite sad. Harrharr.. Ok, gotta go, got my honey half-naked on cam... ;)

September 23, 2007

Wow, hey! This is boring...zZzz...


Umm..yup I am officially bored. I got three exams next week...there's french...and spanish...and science/biology. Ok, so I studied today. Well, well...I know french and spanish grammar now, ain't I cool? -.- Those are my better subjects anyway. And biology...maaan, this exam is taking place on thursday and 'till then I'll have so much free time and boredom that I'll better study THEN, not NOW ;) Interesting, huh? ... (I know I use these three dots so often but... xD I just like them...very much!) Damn I feel like >.<>.< Hmm..do I have to learn this "cell stuff blah blah" by heart- RIGHT NOW? OMG Waiiiit....I just saw a photo of Britney Spears' pussy...ok..ok.. umm, yeah, anyways. It's only 2PM and I am already bored. If I die next week they'll say at my funeral, "she had a lot of time but she didn't ever spend it properly". Urrrgh it's scary to talk of my own death...so...away with that! Well, about the so called "trouble" that I talked about in my last post...IT'S OVER!! (the trouble, I mean) Yup, and that's good. Everything is well. Except for that I guess I'll be very bad at school this year and I have absolutely no money. I will have to live with 5 Euro until November. And there's three birthdays upcoming and you know what this means. PRESENTS! ...have...to...be...paid. full stop. so yeah, that's my current situation. GOSH, IT IS SO BORING. [...] Why is boredom such a big thing in my life? Ok, thinking about studying biology now, you know, I'll write a bad mark anyways?! And..there's things I desire so much more that sitting here without doing anything. Really. But..no..sorry, not possible today. Umm did I tell you I dyed my hair? It's brown now. Yup. And no, I didn't tell you. xD Oh...I HATE MY P.E. CLASSES!! I mean...you know what P.E. class I got? Dancing. But standard dancing. And it sucks. I mean, It's just no fun for me at all. The time goes by so slowly there. I wanted to do hockey..or badminton..or normal dancing. But no, that didn't work with my schedule. Great. If I can't switch P.E. classes after half the year I'll die. Because then we're doing apparatus gymnastics. And, sorry, I will not do this. I am soo bad at it. So bad. I don't want that T_T Ok, enough of the cryin'. Biology. -.- I keep telling myself that I am young and so ready to study the whole day long. Ok. I physically am able to. My head might not explode. But..I AM SO TIRED OF IT. >_< boring..boring..boring ok, I'll try to study now. Alright, bye!

September 9, 2007

The shape of my heart


Hey guys... Well, I don't know. (Attention: I may sound confusing as hell today -.-) Yur, I don't really know what to say. But I feel the need to post here. I feel dizzy, suppressing the most urgent thoughts. Really, I don't know what to think so I try not to think of anything that matters. Well, ok, it obviously doesn't work. Thing is, I'm in trouble. [...] No need to talk about personal issues now, but...I just need to get something off my head. Have you (whomever might read this now) ever come across practising patience? I mean...patience sucks. I once wrote something about it...wait...here it is:
"Being patient is damn boring. There are no thoughts, because nothing happens. It's not about expressing hopes, because they'd be followed by a pace right to the aim. What am I to do if I want to be patient? If I don't think about it, I don't think and I start wondering if other things have any contents at all. I don't know what to do- patience alone cannot occupy me. Give me something with contents. A game while I wait. I don't want to sit here, still, being painted. I want to sit here, still, and paint..."
Umm...well I hope y'all understand 'cause I had to translate it from German. Hope I chose the right words and so... Damn, you know... people who rule patience must be genious. Like deep buddhists or something. I really try to occupy myself. I'm like an impatient child. I've made up a schedule for myself today. [...] I even thought about cleaning the stairs... I'm headsick, ain't I? Well, maybe just desperate. Hmm, and again, I just feel like I have to explain myself even if I don't call the problem by its real name. I don't expect psychological help now *lol* I just want to...empty my mind? I don't know. Feels like I'll never know today. Thank god there's no exam in school next week. If I had to study now, my head would surrender. That's it...oh happy day-wish you one!

August 22, 2007

Back to the roots- back to school!


Well...quite an ironic headline, huh? Hum..today's the last day of the big summer holidays and school's back in my life. I guess it's gonna be a nice year though. I'm in grade 11 now which seems to be cool actually, because...well...I have a few new (cool) subjects, I got rid of some old (bad) subjects and there are no important exams this year. Oh, and I have a new class so..."new" people and so. Yep. I'm well prepared for tomorrow! Haha. I mean, I bought some new school stuff, even got a new school bag <3, aaaand...yes I died my hair once again. LoL but it was not because of school; the red faded to the old dirty blonde (my original hair colour...) and so I wanted to have red hair again, thought this shall better be done before school starts. So this night I'll suffer from lack of sleep, I know, because now that I had holidays I'm used to staying up long at night and tomorrow morning I have to get up at 6.30 o.O And I'm reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows which keeps me reading for hours and hours. Hmm but I don't really mind, I mean, I'm not someone who can be tired a whole day long. And I think I'll have some fun in school. You know...meeting people again, getting to know some news and this daily school blah blah which I've been out of now for a month and a half (I think this sentence is gramatically wrong.....err...hehe?!). So well it's alright now..I feel I told you enough about my glorious life for today (ha..ha..ha...!!).
Good Night (it's night over here- just in case...)

August 13, 2007

This is new & not so fresh...!


Soo...welcome to my brand new blog. Well, I hope anyone is ever reading this and...you know, posting comments and so... yup, that would be nice. But, ok, I'll stop dreaming now^^ Well...the reason why I started this blog is I wanted to have an English blog. Because in English I can just be...more honest and tell the things stripped to the core *lol* Umm..yeah and I'd also like to post some poetry and stuff like that. I'll see what the future brings. =D So I guess this is already the end of my first post now... Oh, and, all the icons are made by me. So don't 'take them without permission' (the same old copyright story). Soo..yup..that's it- BUH BYE!