October 30, 2007
I'm back from my one-week-holiday. It was..well...cold and boring. Really. I'll post some pictures soon, though.
I don't know if it's right to talk about my personal life here, but I have to tell it everyone and everywhere because I...well, I feel quite lonely and I don't want to push it away. So...I can't eat. Can't sleep. Can't concentrate. Can't drink. But that doesn't hurt me. What hurts me is that I have no security. Not at all. I didn't let him leave [...] But now I have to wait for something that may never come. It's very hard but I said I'd give him time because I know what it's worth. And I'll stand my word. But if I don't get through... Really, I CANNOT and do NOT WANT TO imagine this. As I'm sitting here alone right now, I feel it aching in my chest, in my stomache. I feel something thick in my throat. Me siento debil cuando estoy sin tí... (listening to Juanes..and it fits..) It's so strange and different suddenly. When I think of week-ends, I ask myself "What the hell will I be doing?". There's nothing that I would want to...I mean...you know?! I have to really pay attention to not let my eyes get wet. I could study for school all day, but...where's the sense in that? Good marks won't make me a happier person now, really. School has never touched my emotions anyways. Te digo..amame...carino.. Really...I have to make him miss me... But it's hard. And what if I don't succeed? It's hard. Strange and difficult. I'm very insecure but I cannot, will not, give up.
Well, thanks for listening...I'll let this blog know bout whatever my follow...
October 20, 2007
I just wanted to let ya know...[in case anybody ever reads this] that I'm off for like one week now. I'm on vacation in the south of Germany- I'll hopefully come back with some pictures for you to see and some stories maybe..? haha naa it's not gonna be THAT interesting over there. Oh, and, I decided to post more interesting things from now on. Not those stories of boredom. So, yeah, this is a very cool info.: I'm leaving tomorrow..and so..I'm off now! bye..^^
October 15, 2007
Good evening, everyone!
I just wanted to let you know...I am home..ALONE so come around if you like me ;) Kidding in a bad way ~_~ Nah, but I really am home alone. Ooooh. Hmm. I'm tired but..hey it's 8.30 PM and I'm on holidays so..naaah I'm not going to bed right now. T__T I want someone to be around...AND I want some lilac-coloured nailpolish. But dark lilac. Yummi. Haha. But really...I feel lonely *lol. I'm bored & bitchy. Blah. What am I to do? ...I've had a veeeery lazy day today and now I feel like..so lazy but in a rather negative way cuz..humm it's a feeling as if you just lay in bed all day and didn't wash yourself (I DID take a shower though, lol). Know what I mean? Haha I'm on vacation next week. Goin to...yeah the blackforest in the south of Germany. Hahaha. It's actually quite...chilled?! over there..just some hills, forests, cows... Yay ~_~ Hmm but it might be nice though cuz I imagine it's really relaxing.
Hmm wait..what am I up to tomorrow? aaah nuthin >.< That sucks. Really. But I'm going out at night =). Some hot chocolate, please! I recently went to Starbucks with my boyfriend and right now I'm in the mood for another cup. Ah, but I'm getting fat. lol. I'd really like to see a gym. from the inside...ya know? But..it's expensive and there's no way I'm going ALONE. Nah. Hmm okay I'm boring, ain't I? ...
October 6, 2007
Hola, c'est moi! Well well, what do I say? I woke up today at a quarter to 1...PM. I suffered from a great lack of sleep through the whole week. Because of school o_O Humm..well well! I actually don't know what to tell you here but again, I felt like posting. Yay^^ One week of school and then holidays again. Two weeks, I mean, that ain't so bad ^.^ By god I swear, my love went nowhere, it was always there inside of me, it's just that I never told.. Hmm..listenin' to Jamelia. Cute lyrics, huh?
Aww, yes, before I forget..my Nelly Furtado Fansite (NFF, ok?! haha) has just gone through..REEE-DESIGN! sexy, huh? Keep your eyes on Thank you.
Aww, this beat is wicked, it's fun [ears occupied with: Ain't a Love-Jamelia]. OK. Hum. The boys are stupid. Me & the girls wanted to go out tonight but they went yesterday..baah... xD You know...coz I don't =P Well, since a few ...weeks, I guess..me & mates & mates & me keep goin out, drinkin, laughin. Well, me watchin' the drunk mostly. I know it sounds..somewhat stupid but it's kewl, ya? >.<
Anywayz..I NEED MONEY! I wanna buy..this & that =) And a new perfume, man. I'm currently testing "V" by Valentino. It's cool. But Irresistible by Givenchy..and this Lancôme thing...lol, very interesting, I know.
Awww I guess right now it's the first time that I really am happy FOR someone else, not only for me. xD Yup, a friend of mine...aaah she just fell in love and it's so cute. He's so cute. Hehe. I mean...you should really enjoy the moments when a boy writes songs about you...sends you "i've fallen for you"-messages and stuff. Haha. I guess my baby's all over that stuff already. It's almost four months right now. No boy has ever stayed with me for that long. Lol. I know that sounds quite sad. Harrharr.. Ok, gotta go, got my honey half-naked on cam... ;)